*where Elusive will gallop carefree, no more pain.. no more suffering*
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Goodbye Elusive.. you will be missed
at 6am this morning, i received an sms from mr ang, the chinese security guard who also shares the same worries and angst over the ailing cat.
"the cat died, i'm so sorry."
i stoned for a minute. i do feel relieved in some ways as i know Elusive is free from her suffering now. then i started tearing, because of my own attachment to her.
Elusive was lying in almost the same spot i left her last evening. There were 2 blobs of poo on the t-shirt. perhaps she has been constipated all this while she must have felt good when she finally could poo.
uncle zain, the malay security guard, who has been her caregiver for the past 3 years, dug a hole in the ground behind the room where she died and buried her this morning. he clothed her in the school shirt and buttoned up all the way and only the face was revealed. he tucked her in nicely, bundled up, in the malay way, he says. Her body was already stiff. uncle zain said he couldnt sleep last nite. his mind kept wandering to the cat. he also knew that she wouldnt make it. a fellow cat-lover colleague saw Elusive last evening. we were both stroking her. at one point, i got up to check to see if the "coast was clear" of the P, my friend said Elusive lifted up her head and tried to see where i went. i almost cried when i heard this.
as this school busy and burden herself with all the unnecessary work, a sweet little cat left this world. unnoticed by the all-very-important tight-ass "educators" who view strays as trash and pest. unmoved by her suffering, untouched by her spirit.
will take a picture of her "tomb" later.
thank you all for the well-wishes.
i know i'm not alone.
"the cat died, i'm so sorry."
i stoned for a minute. i do feel relieved in some ways as i know Elusive is free from her suffering now. then i started tearing, because of my own attachment to her.
Elusive was lying in almost the same spot i left her last evening. There were 2 blobs of poo on the t-shirt. perhaps she has been constipated all this while she must have felt good when she finally could poo.
uncle zain, the malay security guard, who has been her caregiver for the past 3 years, dug a hole in the ground behind the room where she died and buried her this morning. he clothed her in the school shirt and buttoned up all the way and only the face was revealed. he tucked her in nicely, bundled up, in the malay way, he says. Her body was already stiff. uncle zain said he couldnt sleep last nite. his mind kept wandering to the cat. he also knew that she wouldnt make it. a fellow cat-lover colleague saw Elusive last evening. we were both stroking her. at one point, i got up to check to see if the "coast was clear" of the P, my friend said Elusive lifted up her head and tried to see where i went. i almost cried when i heard this.
as this school busy and burden herself with all the unnecessary work, a sweet little cat left this world. unnoticed by the all-very-important tight-ass "educators" who view strays as trash and pest. unmoved by her suffering, untouched by her spirit.
will take a picture of her "tomb" later.
thank you all for the well-wishes.
i know i'm not alone.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Not looking good
brought Elusive back to the little room before I left today. Laid some old t-shirt for her to lie on. she was really quite limp by then. stroked her and comforted her. told her to let go if she is really is in pain. not sure if she is really in great pain or not. she seemed relaxed and just really really very tired. i'm sure she is tired, all her life, living as a stray, exposed to all the harsh elements of the environment. she is a really beautiful tabby girl with gorgeous stripes. stayed with her for a long time, just stroking her little head. i've a pretty strong feeling that she would go tonight, that we would find a lifeless body in the room tomorrow morning. the poor baby...
Elusive in her healthier days
taken some months back.
when this girl would scoot off before i can even say hi.
when this girl would scoot off before i can even say hi.
she is found! but in a much worse condition
dear all,
A good to news to share. Elusive is found! she has been in the room all this while!! would u believe it?? today the uncle smelt urine in the room and he pushed the bins away and she was there.
the room is stacked up with lotsa bins and stuff so it is not easy to find her.
but the bad news is, she is deteriorating fast. she can no longer stand on her own. she could not even sit up to pee earlier according to the uncle and she just peed lying down. one side of her body was soaked in pee when i saw her earlier. i tried my best to clean her up and lie her on the dry side to let the wet side dry.
she is not eating. but she was still thirsty and drank some with my assistance (lifting her lower body up) but she's completely reliant on me now.
i think it wont be for long. i am estimating 2 or 3 days max for her. her lumps are alot more visible now. she is also not as alert and responsive. she really is deteriorating fast.
sigh.
A good to news to share. Elusive is found! she has been in the room all this while!! would u believe it?? today the uncle smelt urine in the room and he pushed the bins away and she was there.
the room is stacked up with lotsa bins and stuff so it is not easy to find her.
but the bad news is, she is deteriorating fast. she can no longer stand on her own. she could not even sit up to pee earlier according to the uncle and she just peed lying down. one side of her body was soaked in pee when i saw her earlier. i tried my best to clean her up and lie her on the dry side to let the wet side dry.
she is not eating. but she was still thirsty and drank some with my assistance (lifting her lower body up) but she's completely reliant on me now.
i think it wont be for long. i am estimating 2 or 3 days max for her. her lumps are alot more visible now. she is also not as alert and responsive. she really is deteriorating fast.
sigh.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Still missing
left the school at about 6pm today. Elusive was still nowhere to be found.
live in the present, i would remind myself.
yet i cant help but allow a million thoughts race through my mind.
where is Elusive? is she hurt further? has she been picked up by a kind soul who may have taken her to the vet (yet again?)? would that vet ask her to be put down? would that kind soul have agreed? did she get into a fight with the orange tabby (Lion King) who also shares the school? she would not have been able to run fast at all... she could not even walk properly when she came back (limbs sliding out and all..)
is she still alive? pls let her death be a swift one if she is in tremendous suffering right now.
Elusive, Elusive, please show yourself tomorrow first thing in the morning OK? I will give you yummy treats and your favourite wet food.
live in the present, i would remind myself.
yet i cant help but allow a million thoughts race through my mind.
where is Elusive? is she hurt further? has she been picked up by a kind soul who may have taken her to the vet (yet again?)? would that vet ask her to be put down? would that kind soul have agreed? did she get into a fight with the orange tabby (Lion King) who also shares the school? she would not have been able to run fast at all... she could not even walk properly when she came back (limbs sliding out and all..)
is she still alive? pls let her death be a swift one if she is in tremendous suffering right now.
Elusive, Elusive, please show yourself tomorrow first thing in the morning OK? I will give you yummy treats and your favourite wet food.
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